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AwayI want to fly away,
up, in the sky.
down, back to earth.
I want
I want to go.
Away, anywhere, nowhere, somewhere.
Just go,
Leave, let go, live.
I want to fly away,
somewhere I can stay.
R.I.P WordsDo you know what it feels like?
To feel something, but...
be unable to express what it is;
to be silent;
to fight it alone.

I know how much it hurts,
but I don't know how to show it.
Poetry used to be my refuge,
a place where I could be alone -
express all my emotions,
without being judged.

I'm losing it.
I can't connect to poetry.
Everything sounds so stupid...
Everything I write sounds stupid.
I have to erase all my feelings,
because they don't sound right.

The words aren't real.
They don't show what I feel
And maybe this will be the last.
Maybe I'm gone:
lost of all emotions.
I'm truly alone...
I used to have poetry.

Now I have not
Love To KillHe whispered in my ear, "Baby can I hug you around the neck?
Your eyes really brighten up when you cry,
Judging by the marks on your wrist you already want to die."

Trying to recover and stop loving you,
But my heart has a mind of its own,
And I can never find better then you.

"You deserve everything that's coming for you.
Everything you do makes me rageful,
I can barely stand to see you breathe.
Now blow me a kiss as you're on your knees."

Each bruise is a mistake, and truly made of love.
I know how his heart of stone really feels,
I just have to mine through the bitterness.

"You won't ever leave,
Don't you know what my dad did to me?
Yo
SchizophreniaSmile.
Laugh.
Run
Faster.
Faster.
Stop.

"What are you doing?"
Trying to escape.
"Nothing."

Look behind you.
Are they there?
Shh.

Shut up.

Don't.
Say.
Anything.

"What's wrong?"
You'll never understand it.
"Never mind."

Scream.
Scream louder.
Rip your hair out.
Cover your ears.

"Calm down."
I can't.
"I'm sorry."

They want you to die.
They're out for you.
Shut the door.
Lock it.
Unlock it.
Lock it again.
Hide.
Shh.

"Are you okay?"
I'm dying.
"I'm fine."

You'll never make it.
Freeze.
Fall to the ground.
Cry.
Cry harder.

Stop.

"What are you doing?"
Dying.
"What are you going through?"
Torture.
"What'
When Your Best is Not Good EnoughDon't speak.
Don't move.
Don't think.
Don't dream.
Don't hold yourself together.
Don't fall apart.
Don't pretend it is all going to be okay.
Don't act like it won't be all right.
Don't touch me.
Don't look away from me.
Don't be so needy.
Don't be so grateful.
Don't act silly.
Don't be so serious.
Don't have so much fun.
Don't be so sullen.
Don't cry.
Don't laugh.
Don't smile.
Don't frown.
Don't love anyone too much.
Don't be so selfish.
Don't ignore me.
Don't love me too much.
Don't breathe.
Don't exist....

And hope? Hope is just a lie you tell yourself so that tomorrow, you can do it all over again.
SurvivorOn your left cheek bone, you had a long, dark scar
That you've earned when you fought their brutal war
And five broken bones in your slender hands
That you've cracked in a fight of a few damned lands
You deny but I've seen the light limp in your knee
Twisted in a ship at the heart of the sea
You pretend it was fine just to hide your pain
But I see your tears through the thickest rain
And in silent nights I can feel your cries
Just beneath my skin. They uncover your lies
The lies that you've told of how you're doing alright
Though the soldier in you is in constant fight
In silent nights, behind your shut door
You still see your fr
ShardsThe dream shatters around me like a broken mirror.
Pieces of you surround me, but nothing seems to be clear.

I'm still cleaning up the mess you made.
You should have put down your fear,
You could have stayed.
I'm done chasing.
I've stopped running.
Have you even noticed that I'm walking the other way?

I'm cut by the shards of what's left of who you were.
Red tears stain the surface while the world is in a blur.
Mommy and DaddyMommy, Daddy, are you okay?
You haven't talked at all today.
Mommy, Daddy, can't you see?
You're really starting to hurt me.

All you do is scream and fight,
and I hear it all throughout the night.
Sometimes I think my eyes will run dry,
yet whenever I do, I just continue to cry.

"She doesn't care about any of this, she'll be fine by tomorrow!"
Daddy, you don't know how much your words fill me with sorrow.
"Can't you just be civilized?! Stop acting like a child, and apologize right now!"
Mommy, please don't make this worse, or I'll run outside and hide in the snow.

Mommy, Daddy, I wish you would just stop everything and be happy again.
I'm
Daddy, am I pretty?Daddy, am I pretty?

"Daddy, daddy look at me!"
She laughed and turned around
Dressed up in her dress-up clothes.
Daddy didn't make a sound.

"Daddy, daddy look at me."
She told him once again.
"Daddy, am I pretty?"
Said she, feeling empty within.

"Yes." said daddy flatly
Though look he never did.
She ripped off all the clothes,
Ran to her room and hid.

Daddy never came
To ever see if she was fine.
In her floor she laid.
All she could do was cry.

Daddy didn't love her;
She knew that in her heart.
It's not right for a five year old
To feel broken, torn apart.

Although too many years have passed
The story's still the same.
I called only
Just Words"I'm fine" is a dirty lie.
The truth is that I want to die.
 
"I'm tired" is not even done.
It really means "I'm tired of being no one"
 
"I'm better" is but a curse.
The truth is that I've never been worse
 
"I'm just cold" is what I say
so my sleeves can hide my scars away.
 
"I already ate" is said with a frown.
I starve to see the numbers on the scale go down.
 
"I'm okay" is probably the worst.
It really means I'm about to burst.
 
All these things are lies to me.
But you take this as the truth because what else would I be?
 
 
MonsterRun.
Faster.
Fall down.
Cry.
Monsters are following you, they tell you to die.

Scream.
Bleed.
Hide.
Smile.
Smile as long as you can, it won't last for a while.

Insane.
Worthless.
Angry.
Mad.
You're not normal, my friend, that's all in your head.

Tears.
Blood.
Fears.
Pain.
Don't cry, you stupid child, it will start again and again.

"Talk to us.
Talk to us!
Listen to us.
We tell the truth!"
Life or Death? You need to choose.

Weak.
Laugh.
Cry.
You're mad.
It was too much for you and now you're dead.

Dead.
Dead.
Dead.
You're dead.
And no one will be sad.
To Save Your Life
To Save Your Life

Heroes are hard to come by

Especially in this day and age

Because of you- I am still alive

Hail, the vanquisher of pain
-
I fought as long as I could have
But I sank into the weakness below
And I felt my sorrow's wrath
The helplessness took over

My fists let go
Of the resistance

I fell from hope
The light faded in the distance

It was all a dream
A wish...

A simple false belief
I hid...
-
Hands dangled frantically / Tears dripped endlessly
I needed a hero to save me / I yearned to be set free
-
A hand reached out
Held tight...

I was finally found
Relieved sigh...

I rose back to grace
And the darknes
A poem about loveLove consists out of pain
Love consists out of desire
Love is what I admire
Love always fights against my brain

Love is despising
Love is passion
Love is not a piece of fashion
Love is always surprising

None of these things are untrue
Love is enough to make one weep
That is love as it seems

Yet when I think of  you
I simply can’t fall asleep
Since life is finally better, than in my own dreams
All EndsIf you cut you'll bleed
If you bleed you'll die
If you're sad you'll smile
And if you smile it's a lie

If you lie you'll live
If you live you'll die
If you cheat you'll win
And if you win you'll cry

If you cry you'll lose
If you lose you'll die
If you run you'll stay
And if you stay you'll fly

If you fly you'll fall
If you fall you'll die
'Cause no-one will catch you
If your life is a lie.
PulsateWhat is a heartbeat,
without the heart?
What is a dream,
without the conscience?
What is a word,
without the letters?
What is a hope,
without the faith?
What is a soul,
without the self?
What is a kiss,
without the love?

What am I,
without you?
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But do you know how hard it is

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If you don't have hope in your heart

and even not a little smile on your face.

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Believe me I never wanted to do that
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I never laugh.
I never smile.
I never speak.
I am too 'shy'.

What they did to me,
It was too hard.
I wasn't strong enough,
In my heart, it is dark.

I want to see them bleed.
I want to see them cry.
I want to kill them .
Just let me try.

I'm not that weak,
I can do that.
I tell you what's wrong with me,
I am mad.

It makes me happy,
Happy, too see them cry.
I would just laugh at them,
And show them my insane smile.

Yes, maybe I am insane,
One day I'll kill them.
I show them how it is to suffer,
Who's that helpless child then?

They'll all be dead soon.
And they'll see,
see and regret,
everything that they did to me.

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