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Don'tDon't tell me I'm beautiful.
When i feel disgusting.
Don't Tell me I'm lovely.
When my heart is rusting.

Don't talk to me.
I'm not worth it.
Don't encourage me.
Just let me quit.

Don't touch me.
I'm poison.
Don't wish for me.
I'm a prison.

Don't stay,
Please run.
I'm telling you.
Life with me is no fun.

About sadness.I have always waited
waited for insanity to come.
Everything is rated
by others, but I am all alone.
...
Buying things to compensate
all the things I ever lost
All things to abbreviate
the urge of things I needed most.
...
The feeling of happiness
empathy, comprehension
is now filled with loneliness;
sadness with expansion.

LostLost.
I am lost.
Falling.
Falling.
F
A
L
L
I
N
G.
I have no direction.
I'm falling into a universe,
An alternate reality.
I am trapped.
Twisting, turning,
Pushing, pulling,
Stop, go.
Endless cycles,
That never stop.
Inside those cycles,
I am
Lost.

My Own HellI think of ways
To waste away
With this time left unpaid

I sit and reflect
On the breath in my chest
And the words left unsaid

I rot and writhe in darkness
My heart helpless and a mess
Filled with this sick unrest

I look up and see nothing
I look inside and see worse than nothing
I watch the lies and hear the sighs

The lonely breaths of emptiness
Into an empty world only I know
The one I created for myself

You may breach the castle walls
But the stone will never crumble
And the fortress will never fall

Who hears the cries of a helpless child
Who hears the cracking of a broken heart
Who hears the death of a dying smile

Watch the words t

Tick-Tock"Tick-Tock"

Tick-tock
The clock struck five
Another minute passed
Time controls our lives

Can I turn back the dials?
No one has to know
I'm just so very tired
Watching the time go
The clock doesn't care
An objects mocks our hearts
Numbers arranged in a circle
Could be wrong from the start

Tick-tock
Hours passing by
There's nowhere you can hide
Before it's time to die

Can I wake up?
Maybe it's a dream
Can I turn the hourglass around
And then go back to sleep?
The sand drips like water
Flowing freely in a space
Reminding sons and daughters
One day they'll be erased

Tick-tock
This noise is in my head
Not much longer now
I don't want to leav

Stronger"Stronger"

How does it feel to be erased?
How does it feel to be replaced?
Consumed by your inborn hate
You've made your grave in a lonesome fate

How does it feel to feel nothing at all?
How does it feel to stumble and crawl?
Not such a nice feeling now, is it?
Others may deem you as quite pathetic

I don't need your filth, your shame, your lies
And I found in time I did survive
I'm stronger now because I don't allow
People to walk over or break me down somehow

I don't need your trust, your eyes, your games
And in the end it was really such a shame
But I refuse to relate to the same mistakes
I don't allow myself to ache or break

I feel s

I'm Fine"Are you okay?"
That's all they say.
And I leave behind
These words in my mind.
I'm broken, I'm dying.
Inside, I'm crying.
There are wounds beneath my skin.
There are trials I face within.
There are things I just can't say.
There are people I must betray.
Beneath a smile, I feel pain.
Behind the sun, there's always a little rain.
And beneath these words I hold in my head...
There's always the thing I say instead.
I leave the truth behind..
So when they say, "are you okay?"
I always say, "I'm fine."

Dead at 16My worries are a reservoir
Her worries are a lake
In that they’re very real indeed
Whereas mine are very fake

Invented to seek attention
Lies, oh despicable lies
One day I’ll drown in metaphors
Please be sure to sympathise

But while you show me this concern
Who'll be looking out for her
Blood curdling screams from my mouth
She is nil by mouth and verse

I have cried wolf so many times
She can’t even cry her own tears
My lies are spun in silk cobwebs
My spinneret shrouding your ears

I spoon fed you daily doses
So it was easier to digest
I planted those seeds of sorrow
Your fertile mind did the rest

Lies, all those despica

Avoid Drama"Avoid Drama"

How dare you spread such rumors
How dare you say such lies
How can I be pregnant?
I'm not a girl; I'm a guy!

Why would you think that?
Why would you fib
About people you don't know
Or things you never did?

He broke up with her
She cheated on him
Please don't get me involved
I don't know where to begin

So what if you never
Got asked out to the prom?
It only lasts one night
Then life will carry on

Every week there's someone
Fighting with a friend
Who hates who this week?
Please let this drama end

Because I'll never understand
Why people have to judge
Adding insult to injury
To hearts that never budge

What

I am not a stereotypeSlide the blade across your wrist.
Again.
Again.
Again.
Stop.
"Doesn't it hurt?"
I can't feel anything.
"A little."

Punch your own stomach.
Harder.
Harder.
Does it hurt yet?
Yes.
Keep going.
"Why do you do that?"
The pain makes me feel alive.
"I don't know."

Stare.
Cry.
Scream.
Stop.
Keep staring.
"What's wrong with you?"
I'm dead inside.
"Nothing."

"Emotional freak."
I'm just depressed.
"Sorry."

Stare at your arms.
Your stomach.
Your waist.
Your thighs.
"What are you doing?"
I'm ugly.
"Never mind."

"Attention seeker."
I just have low self esteem.
"I'm sorry."

Cuts.
Scars.
Tears.
Emotions.

"Emo."
"Scene girl."
"Psycho."

I'm just human

Serenade Her Sky"Serenade Her Sky"

Use me if you need to vent
Use me to your heart's content
I'm here for you; I'm prepared
I'll always listen; don't be scared

Use me as your punching bag
Tell me when you're feeling mad
I do not bruise; I have the might
If it means you'll be all right

Use me when you're black and blue
I'll restore your heart anew
Let me know when you are grey
Things won't always stay the same

Thanks for giving me the chance
To walk together hand-in-hand
I promise to help you through
What it is that's killing you

Tell me if I'm acting wrong
Tell me if I don't belong
I can handle what you say
I've matured in many ways

You're the stars an

Stay Young"Stay Young"

Remember when the only thing to do in the morning
Was lay in bed and watch cartoons?
Nothing else then seemed important
And we didn't get out of bed until noon.

Remember when after school every day
We would play tag in the park?
We couldn't be told what to say
And we'd run around like fools until dark

But now that we've become older
Making transitions to new frames of mind
Life is weighing down like boulders
And things suddenly aren't as fine

We can't help but think; we can't help but worry
Some say life will just begin
But it seems no matter how fast we hurry
We're in a race we just can't win

We're in a tunnel that has no l

The DarknessThe darkness grabs,
it holds on tight.
I try to evade,
but I can't find the light.

Let me go!
I want to live,
but it does not tire.
It does not give.

I'm fading away,
can't find myself.
Someone, please!
Anyone, help.

But no one hears my cry.
The darkness smiles in glee.
As I've lost myself all together.
I will never be free.

Just Words"I'm fine" is a dirty lie.
The truth is that I want to die.

"I'm tired" is not even done.
It really means "I'm tired of being no one"

"I'm better" is but a curse.
The truth is that I've never been worse

"I'm just cold" is what I say
so my sleeves can hide my scars away.

"I already ate" is said with a frown.
I starve to see the numbers on the scale go down.

"I'm okay" is probably the worst.
It really means I'm about to burst.

All these things are lies to me.
But you take this as the truth because what else would I be?

Catch Me"Catch Me"

As I felt the breeze smack me; I knew this was finally it
I couldn't possibly survive; I knew I couldn't miss

I looked to the left of me; the shadow followed me down
I saw the shadow crying; it knew soon we'd hit the ground

I caught glimpse of reality; despite falling at great heights
By looking through the windows; at least ones that had the lights

I saw a person snorting drugs and a father yelling at his son
They had left their television running; I think the Yankees won

For not letting her go out, a girl screamed at her mom
And a little further down, a guy had made a bomb

The wind felt so nice, but I could not look away
Be

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Monster

by ~ChantyJedhead, Feb 4, 2013, 4:25:43 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Run.
Faster.
Fall down.
Cry.
Monsters are following you, they tell you to die.

Scream.
Bleed.
Hide.
Smile.
Smile as long as you can, it won't last for a while.

Insane.
Worthless.
Angry.
Mad.
You're not normal, my friend, that's all in your head.

Tears.
Blood.
Fears.
Pain.
Don't cry, you stupid child, it will start again and again.

"Talk to us.
Talk to us!
Listen to us.
We tell the truth!"
Life or Death? You need to choose.

Weak.
Laugh.
Cry.
You're mad.
It was too much for you and now you're dead.

Dead.
Dead.
Dead.
You're dead.
And no one will be sad.

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~RusticRomance69 May 4, 2013

Freaky, but awesome.
Indeed, freaky awesome.

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~ChantyJedhead May 5, 2013 Hobbyist Artist

Thank you ^^

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~RusticRomance69 May 5, 2013

^ *

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~Buddhagirl12 Apr 6, 2013 New member Student Writer

tears

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~ChantyJedhead Apr 12, 2013 Hobbyist Artist

(:

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~xxEmoGingerWolfxx Feb 17, 2013

wow...This is really beautiful. I..can't put words to it.

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~ChantyJedhead Feb 17, 2013 Hobbyist Artist

Aw thank you.
And thanks for the fave :]

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~xxEmoGingerWolfxx Feb 17, 2013

no problem

You're welcome

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~YellowGrin Feb 7, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Forgot to comment.

That was very beautiful in a dark way, I love it!

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